“I answered an ad in the newspaper looking for girls. It was the cheesiest and cheapest video. My first time, I was drunk. I was so very nervous and it was hard. I was very camera shy at the time. Once I started drinking, I was okay, but before that, I was too nervous to do a thing. I couldn’t even look at the camera. I was afraid people were going to see me and hear my voice. What if I sound terrible? What if I make these stupid faces? Those things were constantly going through my head. After I did the first video, it became easier and I felt I could do it for a living.
“I don’t have to watch myself, but I can do it in front of the camera. What I usually do most of the time is imagine I’m with some cute guy or girl and, then it makes it really, really easy. I love it! It’s a lot of fun. Actually, more than anything, I’ve learned to like having people around. Having people watch while I’m having sex. It’s kind of cool. I can forget about all the other people around me and really get into the sex, and then when I come out of that whole euphoria, people are looking at me in a stupor, like, ‘Oh my god! I can’t believe what you just did! How did you take that whole dick up your ass like that!’ It’s kind of cool ’cause people are like, ‘Oh my god, you get so into it,’ and I tell them the only way I can do it is by really getting into it.”
